SO, uh, in case anyone noticed my last written post was months ago. Welp, didn't think anyone would start bitching b/c let's face it, I'm no Necole Bitchie lol; but I played hooky and slipped "Out of the Office" sort of speak. Towards the latter part of last year I realized a need for a mental hiatus from blogging for a time to recharge, reflect, and re access certain priorities, purposes, and plans. Suppose sensing the transition in my own life contrasted the urge to "do" moreso than "jot". I'm back in school and in the land of the working.
I'm excited and anxious all in the same. Nevertheless, I decided to the put the sword down for awhile -- along with any guilt for simply allowing myself breaks in writing. I was being hard on myself as usual but quite frankly, I wanted to muzzle my muse for the moment. I've been on my soap box typing away since 2008 (with the creation of my main blog CKMag); using blogging and freelance writing as a catalyst I commenced to heal a battered self esteem, position some healthy challenges and feed an insatiable inquisition (which I pray will never go away). I soon realized my digging for truth against world corruption was a cry for help! LOL. I wasn't necessarily angry with the world -- well, perhaps I was b/c I'd felt abused and mistreated. However, I was disappointed with myself. I had let myself down and desperately wanted more for myself.
Fast forward. It's 2012... a new year with its own set of lessons, challenges, and blessings. Bottom line. Spiritually, mentally, emotionally, I am a grown woman and can finally say with a doubt I KNOW MYSELF. I am centered with a plan and confident about my future b/c I KNOW I am able and in control through CHRIST who strengthens and guides me. And boy does it feel empowering to gain confidence and clarity. Again, I owe it all to GOD working on and within me. This is my testimony and I have yet a way to go...he's with me every step of the way though, so should not fear or doubt. Two feelings that have held me back for waaaay too long!
As far as blogging and freelance writing... I know as I transition so will my creative focus and desires. As long as the LORD keeps my mind and body able I will write. There's no rush. Again, Happy New Year, everyone. May this year bring forth good times, fortune, a sense of renewal and empowerment. We certainly have our work cut out for us as the winds of change are blowing ever, ever more. Remember, we have the power to harness that energy. GOD speed.
I'm excited and anxious all in the same. Nevertheless, I decided to the put the sword down for awhile -- along with any guilt for simply allowing myself breaks in writing. I was being hard on myself as usual but quite frankly, I wanted to muzzle my muse for the moment. I've been on my soap box typing away since 2008 (with the creation of my main blog CKMag); using blogging and freelance writing as a catalyst I commenced to heal a battered self esteem, position some healthy challenges and feed an insatiable inquisition (which I pray will never go away). I soon realized my digging for truth against world corruption was a cry for help! LOL. I wasn't necessarily angry with the world -- well, perhaps I was b/c I'd felt abused and mistreated. However, I was disappointed with myself. I had let myself down and desperately wanted more for myself.
Fast forward. It's 2012... a new year with its own set of lessons, challenges, and blessings. Bottom line. Spiritually, mentally, emotionally, I am a grown woman and can finally say with a doubt I KNOW MYSELF. I am centered with a plan and confident about my future b/c I KNOW I am able and in control through CHRIST who strengthens and guides me. And boy does it feel empowering to gain confidence and clarity. Again, I owe it all to GOD working on and within me. This is my testimony and I have yet a way to go...he's with me every step of the way though, so should not fear or doubt. Two feelings that have held me back for waaaay too long!
As far as blogging and freelance writing... I know as I transition so will my creative focus and desires. As long as the LORD keeps my mind and body able I will write. There's no rush. Again, Happy New Year, everyone. May this year bring forth good times, fortune, a sense of renewal and empowerment. We certainly have our work cut out for us as the winds of change are blowing ever, ever more. Remember, we have the power to harness that energy. GOD speed.
