Showing posts with label thirties. Show all posts
Showing posts with label thirties. Show all posts

30 Years to Life

So, yesterday was eventful (Roger voice)...

My 31st  birthday! Much like a movie, the weekend started off slow (Friday), experienced melodrama in the middle (Saturday), topped off with a surprise (yet pleasant) ending (Sunday). I'll spare you the details LOL but for a second there I found myself coming down with another case of, "OMG! I'm in my 30's" blues -- the first time hit the hardest; turning 30. And so, there it was --- poignant, self-awareness induced anxiety rearing its ugly head over the weekend. I fought the major symptom -- frantically running to my room like a emotionally compromised teenage girl, plop on the bed and commence to do the ugly cry into a pillow, until someone knocks on my door and I scream, "Leave me ALONE!".  Hmm. I wonder how many years after turning 30 will I return to this horrific emotional state. OK. I'm dramatizing a bit but for some folks (typically us ladies), it's all too real. However, me? I'm able to pep talk myself while eating chocolate birthday cake rationalize through those feelings.  I suspect no mere humanoid becomes fully used to the realities of aging.  Yet, with each passing year we become all the more thankful and embrace it; as we take comfort in being alive (first and foremost), the love and companionship of old friendships/family, and the wisdom of our past experiences.  I'm looking forward to this year and (Lord willing) the ones ahead. They say it only gets better...and I will say, I'm certainly happier now at 31 than I was at 21!